January 2011
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tristifical - causing to be sad or mournful. eternitarian - one who believes in the eternity of the soul. cosmogyral - whirling round the universe. siagonology - study of jaw-bones. autexousious - exercising or possessing free will. nepheliad - cloud-nymph. gardeviance -chest for valuables; a traveling trunk. ictuate - to emphasize. senticous - prickly; thorny. interfation - act of interrupting...
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my hands are still shaking. i’m still shaking. i sleep with rilakkuma most nights. i’m still a horrible person no matter what i try to fix.
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there’s this feeling i have at the moment, and i dont know what it is, but it’s familiar to me. there are a lot of emotions i know i have felt before but i dont know what they are. I’m so confused inside and i dont want to be a heartbreaker but i dont know how to approach this or say anything that would be of comfort to people. most of all, i dont really know what i want. i think...
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i had the weirdest dream involving birdie. maybe I’ve been reading too many fantasy novels lately.
in other news, I’m about to skip 2/7 of my classes this week because I’m really behind on schoolwork. :(
i hate it that we were this close and i didn’t get to see you.
any of you.
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i fell
really deep this time. it’s kind of really bad, i think. I don’t even know why. I feel like i’m 15 again.
Also, i couldn’t muster up courage. That’s also really bad. :/
I ordered pizza. Not because I have a craving, but because it’s for homework. That was due yesterday.
I hate the sensation of being cold all the time, shivering and teeth chattering, and the...
after a while you think things get easier, but then they just get harder and then things just suck.
obstacles are there for a reason; you learn to adapt, you learn about life in general by getting through those obstacles. But that doesn’t make it any easier on you when you’re going through them.
all the good things in life should balance out the bad, but sometimes it just seems like...
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I wish things were fast-forwarded to spring break already. And it’s only been the first day back. Damn, son.
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My best feature were not my collarbones. They used to be, until i recently looked at myself in the mirror. In actuality, I cannot think of what my best physical feature is. Or what I feel is my best physical feature. I don’t feel very good about my body and until I get regular exercise, I doubt that I ever will. Hopefully I will be able to change that in the near future. There is a...
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you’re sweet but confusing. I hate being confused.
i have a ridiculous smile on my face when you call but i wouldn’t really ever tell you that.
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I had a good night tonight. It wasn’t awesome, but it was good. Bittersweet, actually. It’s not a victory, but I imagine victories are usually bittersweet. And when I go back to New York, I will be honest. I know what I have to do.
I’ll be brief and concise, but it’s just too bad things aren’t what we want them to be, and it’s just a chance missed, bad...
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happy new year
here’s to hoping it will be better than the last.
less pain, but more alive.
less hurt, but more perceptive.
more honesty, more understanding.
No resolutions but to be true to myself and others.